Alone

Just another day in paradise the song goes - whose paradise are we exactly talking about over here? Mine? Not today I say. Paradise should be something you long to be in, it should be something wonderful, something or someplace that you would rather be than where you are at present. I sit here alone in a house shouting quiet. Why? Because it is where I deserve to be? Nope, not today. Today I deserve to be happy. Today I deserve to be outside in the world where the world can look at me and say, she seems to be happy.
Am I happy? So many questions ... always the same answer to that question. NO!
A big resounding no is all I can give.
Supposedly you had the love of a man that does everything in his power to break the love down, how does one react then? Does one carry on with life and with living that life or does one get on with ones life elsewhere?
Supposedly the love that is previously mentioned has a child who has no respect for the one who is supposedly loved. How does one treat such child? Does one carry on giving out love, respect, emotional building or whatever it is that children "deserve" or does one give up?
Supposedly the one meant to be respected and loved by the child chooses to shut out the child because of the potential to be hurt is too great, how does the one meant to be respected and loved then react?
More questions ... no answers!