Lost

... and nowhere to be found ...
This is the general feeling I have been having for the last couple of months. Just when you think you cannot go any lower and anymore lost, something better comes along to pull the rug out from under your feet.
I have this friend who has his love rug pulled from under his feet. Anyway, he has come to the realisation that the darkness always wins. Today I'm not that far behind him.
Being in a marriage that exists in name only is no fun. Being on the receiving end of deception and lies sure as heck is no fun.
Being ... that hurts. Yep, just being hurts. Why am I still crying if those you cry over are not worth it? Isn't that how the saying goes? Those that make you cry is not worth it ... I don't know ... it's something like that.
Bless friends and family who shower you with love in abundance
Bless friends and family who care so much, who will think nothing of taking on the world on your behalf
Bless friends and family who will always be there no matter how dark things seem.